Are we there yet?

Everyone else I know went through divorce and came out the other side; not me. I have to look back now that it has been 20 years and realize things just aren't going to be what the world of families calls normal.

I only speak to two of my adult children. I married a man from a dysfunctional family and between the two o us, we created a family that hangs by itself.

Life wasn't suppose to be this way. But, we learn and yet another holiday season will be here and I will be alone or chatting with my roommate. My eldest son has been out of prison for the third time, now for a year. He'll call. But it doesn't stop others who want to ask me what I did wrong to create such disenchanted children. I yelled from the frustration of it all. I encouraged them all. I helped with homework and tried my best to stay sane with the marriage or the excuse of one that I had. I was barely hanging on most of the time.

I am on the outside. There are many with me I feel. Many also don't remarry, but the world, as a whole, doesn't talk about that. It's not fun to hear about the lonely people. We only want to hear about the people who end up happy. If I wasn't a writer, I would have been in the looney bin a long time ago.

I want to hear from others and share opinions.

You can write me directly at writer@well.com. That's all for now.

Laura Bell
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